daddy desire

Maybe it has always been there. Lurking in the back of my mind. Maybe they are thoughts I have carried around since childhood. Maybe it’s the result of genetic imprinting. I don’t know. What I do know is that more and more it’s all I think about. It has became an obsession. I’ve tried to push it the back of my mind. Tried telling myself men shouldn’t think like this, but then I see kids playing in a park or walk past a school and my urges come to the forefront. Its instinctual, a deep down primal urge.

There’s a hole in my life – I’ve tried filling it with sex and drugs and electronic dance music. With TV and movies and football and beer. But that hole is the size of a small child.

I want to be called a daddy. I want to have a purpose. I want to give life meaning.

2 thoughts on “I Want To Be A Dad

  1. For many years, know how you feel or felt! My wife and I struggled with countless failed attempts to get pregnant. After countless IVF treatments…we ran the full spectrum of the fertility treatment vocabulary, from IVF to ICSI to egg donation and beyond. Our quest took us from Nicosia to Tlblisi to Kiev to Tel Aviv and beyond. One thing we never gave up was hope and the will that some day it will happen. With help from modern medical science and a lot of help from the Big Guy upstairs…10 years later, we were blessed with our Little Prince who is now 1 year old! Yes our finances were more than stretched thin and we put off other priorities but it’s well worth it! We lucked out when friends suggested specialists in Tel Aviv who have a great batting average! Thank God for the experts at Manor IVF. Worth the effort.When I look down at my sleeping pal in his crib at night, I’m sure! Find ’em at Cheers!

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